TheOtherSideOfAlex
Pregnancy Vlog: Week 28!!
I will start off by running down all of my symptoms for you then go into some specs and finish off with a horrible tale of despair.
In the last four weeks I have felt great, some sciatic nerve pain a couple of days out of the week, but nothing I can't handle. I am growing more and more uncomfortable at bedtime and it takes me hours to fall asleep. Once I am asleep I can only sleep for about six hours then I wake up for several hours and then take about a three hour nap at some point in the day usually before or after my husband is coming home from work. The reason for the trouble sleeping is the very frequent movements my baby is doing. While I love being able to feel her and know she is ok, it leaves me feeling quite queasy. (I don't think I have ever written that word out before so weird)
The main cravings I am having lately is chocolate milk and fruit.
At the start I weighed around 120lbs and I currently weigh 145lbs, so that is a running total of 25lbs so far. I expect to gain at least another 15-20lbs before she is born and am not worried about gaining the weight. I know that my baby is perfectly healthy and that my blood work and scans are all perfect, so if I gain 50lbs then I gain 50lbs, I am loving being pregnant and I appreciate so much the ability that I have to become pregnant and have such an amazing support system on this journey with me.
Now let's get to the horrible tale of despair...
Ok so in the video that I filmed on Sunday, that I have linked down below, the horrible tale of despair had not yet occurred so I was all happy dappy not knowing the evils that night would bring me.
I have to preface this by letting you know that my husband and I have been watching all of the episodes of Star Gate SG1, (Will make sense.) I am dreaming that I am in a world that looks like the realm that Biblo and Frodo Baggins go into when they put on the Ring. The edges of everything pull away in soft gray and white moving like there was some kind of intense wind pulling the color off of everything. There was a bucket looking object that I, for some reason, had to put over my head while crouching in order to escape without getting sucked away to where ever this "pulling wind" was taking the edges of this world. I cross into a teleportation device that I am not familiar with and it takes me to my mother, as I get my footing and hold on to my stomach to feel my baby it collapses under my hands. She is gone. Some how she did not make the trip and she was just gone. I screamed and screamed "my baby, where is my baby", I screamed so intensely that I woke up screaming. My husband gets woken up as well and I am still not fully awake, just yelling and checking my stomach. Of course she was there, but the damage was done. Once I realized it had been a dream and that it was over I just sobbed into my husband chest and he reassured me that she was in there and that she was ok. I cried for two hours. I ended up giving myself hives and two swollen eyelids. I told my Mom and my Sister and they calmed me down pretty good.
This is the first nightmare that I have ever had of my baby, which we nicknamed Embryan until she has a real name. It's just a name that we came up with when she was still just an embryo. Anyways, both of my sisters have children and all of our husbands are active duty service members, so I have had many nightmare about my nieces and my nephew, even of my Mom and my sister's husbands. I have had many night terrors when my nephew was born 11 years ago, so I am no stranger to having these types of anxiety driven dreams. But to have a dream like that of my own child, I was not prepared for in the slightest. I have cried dozens of times today. It just felt so real and it was so cruel, that it is very much burned into my mind. As I sit here now writing about it, I feel myself getting over it.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=of4cvfY6bG8
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-Alexandra
